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Name: Jill
Country: United States
State: Long Island
Birthday: 10/28/1988
Gender: Female
Interests: all things that are music, drawing and all things that are art related as well, writing, being a total loser, varsity softball, my guitar, skateboarding, the old shortys team, bmx, concerts, piercings/tattoos, spiderman<333, making clothes, laughing, playing/writing music, lifeguarding, learning, video games, all extreme sports, shaggy hair, cuddling, having fun at all costs, scary movies, bucky lasek<3, homestar runner, adult swim, and playing sports (bet you didn't see that one coming)
Expertise: brutal honesty.
Occupation: Student
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  face like murdr
Member Since:
9/6/2004
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its been fun.
live journal: girl_fight_
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| the past week has been gay.
ive been listening to emery too much.
well actually tuesday was pretty good. i guess.
the day sucked but by 6 i was with perry and scot and its a comfort to
know that there are still fun genuine people in the world who no matter
what will never change and thats a good thing. considering its been
about 7 months or so since i really saw either one of them for a decent
amount of time it was good to see them again. perry is the same, being
his stupid n00b self and i see him like a big brother. and scot of
course is the same, screaming shit at the top of his lungs and twirling
his hair. idk i just had a comfortable feeling hanging out with them
again, like everything was okay. so yeah we saw fantastic four which
was so awful that it was awesome. haha idk yeah it wasnt good. then
went to bumblefuck to pick up some girl, LoLZ there you go, um then
went to leos. yeah the end.
i finally got my permit after being 16 for a good 8 or 9 months.
of course i sit down to take the test. i look down at the sheet with all the pictures on it and this is whats in front of me....
i cant get away. ever. blahhh.
so yeah yesterday i did that, and went to ikea and broadway mall.
exciting? yes i know.
visited tony at journeys. (journeys, yeah i know)
decided to hang out in gc for a change.
went to lyric. hung out, took a shit load of pictures with lyss' camera, talked to some random dude. yeah.
 john and i >you.
 <3.
yeah.
today i worked.
i love work.
not sarcastic.
i hate crushes.
i hate having them and i hate thinking about people.
why? because i set myself up for disaster.
tonight is sworn enemy.
this is easily the worst entry ever.
suck it.
lindsay and i have confirmed we're gay and everyone sucks.
kbye.
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| the past week has been gay.
ive been listening to emery too much.
i finally got my permit after being 16 for a good 8 or 9 months.
of course i sit down to take the test. i look down at the sheet with all the pictures on it and this is whats in front of me....
i cant get away. ever. blahhh.
so yeah yesterday i did that, and went to ikea and broadway mall.
exciting? yes i know.
visited tony at journeys. (journeys, yeah i know)
decided to hang out in gc for a change.
went to lyric. hung out, took a shit load of pictures with lyss' camera, talked to some random dude. yeah.
john and i >you.
<3.
yeah.
today i worked.
i love work.
not sarcastic.
i hate crushes.
i hate having them and i hate thinking about people.
why? because i set myself up for disaster.
tonight is sworn enemy.
this is easily the worst entry ever.
suck it.
lindsay and i have confirmed we're gay and everyone sucks.
kbye.
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| oh what a week it has been.
where did i leave off?
ok so last wednesday, i didnt do much, in fact i was an emotional
wrecking ball for no reason. this whole week i havent been myself
emotionally and ive been listening to dashboard confessional a bit.
yeah somethings not right. anyway. wednesday night i just hung out with
garden city friends for the first time in awhile. of course we were at
lyric and they were all just drinking/smoking and being stupid, what we
do best (minus the drinking/smoking part for me and only me) haha. yeah
it was alright, something to do i guess. the next day was fun. i woke
up bright and early (aka like 11) to catch a train to massapequa park
with TJ. it was a good train ride of course. we just spent the day with
pete, this kid randy i think it was, and radical patrick who i love
lol. we went to ihop which brought back old memories considering
patrick and perry are like clones. anyway, it was fun and amusing. then
we headed to amityville for the gayest show ever but whatever we just
got to hang out with people and yeah blah blah (it goes downhill from
here for a few days.) i had to leave early to head to work so saying
goodbye sucked bc i didnt want to leave especially certain people. oh
welllllll. so i was shit tired in work and of course it was a really
busy day. whatever. thursday sucked. A LOT. the emotions were running
high for numerous reasons and just not being able to figure things out
was just pissing me off beyond belief. i officially loathe the online
phrase "idk" grrrrr. so i was angry/upset/emo little shit for the whole
night. joe called me to cheer me up which was sweet. hmmm friday was
gay all day too, my mood was slightly better but still had its ups and
downs. but it got better at night when i went to frodos house with
sparrow and leah and cantos ended up coming. those kids can always
cheer me up no matter what. we were all pissed bc we wanted to get to
the this is hell show in farmingville but its impossible to get out
there sometimes. oh well we had fun walking to 7-11 in the rain and
being immature which rarely happens for me, frodo cantos and sparrow
peed on random peoples lawns and then punched peoples doors so we had
to run like fuck. haha. then we made it back to frodos house when leah
cantos and i discovered his little sisters dress-up box. ok if you
didnt know girls were born for dress up. haha so we found all this shit
and leah ends up in a 1950s poodle skirt ironically enough, me in a
power ranger mask, and cantos with a mexican hat (figures) so we took
pictures and of course xtuffx myspace mirror pictures. hahaha and then
i found this dinosaur outfit so of course at this point my night is
complete haha. so i got home, cantos and leah were gonna sleepover but
couldnt so i just stayed up until like 3, what i do best. ok so
saturday, busy busy. woke up around 1 lol, headed out to amityville at
2 with frodo, pete, katy, buddha, and brett. met up with all the usual
kids for the rhd set which was um not good? lol but it happens,
everyone has off days. so after seeing them and speechless at gunpoint
we left, went back to frodos for a bit, then to the garden city show. i
got to see chris gallagher aka my brother who i love who i havent seen
since school. and i saw james. so yeah i love the gallagher family so
much. its ridiculous. so yeah it was a fun show, a lot of people came i
was surprised and it was a lot of people that i happen to love so its
all good lol. the only time i got pissed off was when some guy jumped
on my back when i was floor punching so of course i just flipped him
over my back so that he landed on the ground curled in a little ball.
fucking dick. and then he gets up so i kick him in the ribs. haha fuck
with me i dare you. hah so yeah, but fun times. sunday was a pretty
good day. during the day i just sat around and relaxed until i get
notice that i should be going to the bleeding through, zao, misery
signals, fight paris, darkest hour show, so what do i do? i go. of
course. haha it was me, cantos, paul, other paul, frodo, alex aka
smiles, mario, pat, tony, shane, jackie, and whoever else i forgot, it
was fun. the city shows are amusing, everytime i leave long island for
a show the styles of dancing are hilarious and the attitudes.
everything is much friendlier in a fucked up sort of way. but yeah
overall it was a good night with good people. i love my friends so
much, i really dont know what id do without them. so thank you to the
people ive been spending time with lately, i love all of you. and as
far as the relationship aspects, ive been having my fun so who the fuck
knows and who the fuck cares, im a go with the flow type person and im
gonna keep it that way. so whatever happens, happens
today: get fitted for bridesmaids dress. GAY.
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Well here I am. Don't know how to say this.
only thing I know is awkward silence.
Your eyelids close when you're around me to shut me out.
I'll make my way across the frozen sea, beyond the blank horizon,
where I can forget you and me and get a decent night's sleep.
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| sometimes i wish i could just turn off my brain and stop thinking.
i dont know what to think at this point.
whatever it is i hope im just being paranoid.
stop being a typical girl jill, this is not like you, just STOP.
on another note.
my belly button ring is infected beyond belief.
its gross. so i thought you should know.
and theres 2 RHD shows this weekend.
i think you should all be there.
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